Blah. Whatever. Read it if you want to.

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back… so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are an emotional and sensitive person. You are inclined to delight and wallow in all things that give pleasure to your senses but nevertheless your tastes are refined and you reject anything that is indecent or vulgar.

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That’s the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You’re really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your ‘thing’ in your own way.

You wish to be left in peace… no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don’t want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for ‘them’ to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Pretty accurate I must say. Why not try it out yourself?

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back… so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are an emotional and sensitive person. You are inclined to delight and wallow in all things that give pleasure to your senses but nevertheless your tastes are refined and you reject anything that is indecent or vulgar.

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That’s the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You’re really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your ‘thing’ in your own way.

You wish to be left in peace… no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don’t want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for ‘them’ to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Pretty accurate I must say. Why not try it out yourself?

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

TA DA! By Leya’s demand, I will now post up photos of my new haircut! Before anyone frowns at that, let me just tell you that I went all the way to friggin’ Tiong Bahru for it ok. But it was good. I will stick with this salon. (Thanks Leya!)

  A day before the haircut.

The next day after the haircut

PS: I wanna thank my friends and my family for the support these few days.. transition period would be quite trying. I believe he would have slight difficulty in adjusting back to his life, as it appears that he much more prefers his singlehood and being available all over again. But for girls usually it’d take longer, so.. if I have one of those bad times again, then ma fan ni men le!

From this experience I realize that although I am an introvert and do not have alot of friends, I can turn to most of them for comfort and assurance. They would come in the middle of the night all the way from Tuas (after knocking off from duties) and/or Geylang (after supper). I love you peeps!

There had been alot of self realization on the way.. and I learnt alot from this episode. So I do have to thank him for showing me my weaknesses and allowing me to change myself from now on. Up till now, I have never made the effort to change myself for myself or for anyone. Thank you!

I tell myself to believe your words and the reasons for the breakup. But then, when a guy wants out, then any excuses become valid reasons. These thoughts became stronger after the road trip, it seemed.

Sometimes I wonder if there is some other girl that you are now considering. But if there is, and you are denying it and intend to first initiate a break up because of this? Then I’d have to say it’s not right. I wish that I am wrong in this judgement.

Although I eventually was able to get you to not break up and instead have a cool down period until June, but I sensed eventually that you wanted something else. In that case, I’ll do it. Like in that card I gave you; "I am when you are." If you can be truly happy from the bottom of your heart when you regain singlehood, then I guess I cannot do much to hold you back anymore.

I said to you, " If out of 5 days, you give me 3 days full of crap and anger and uncertainty but the 2 days you’d show me any positive signs, vibes and hope, I will sustain in this relationship through this trying period."

You should still be able to recall what your reply was.

I truly wish you all the best in your goals and pursuits in life. Anything that will make you happy and (if ever) contented and satisfied with your life.

I guess our love for each other is pretty much like when the microwave oven fell in love with the crockpot. One heats up fast and cools down fast while the other slowly simmers and then boils..and it would also take the crockpot some time to eventually regain its coolness. So I will most probably continue to love you despite of everything that had happened. I don’t know if we could ever be friends again. I won’t say no, but it’s not a resounding yes either.

So for the both of us, I’d say this: Jia you jia you jia you!!!

Until the day if we ever meet again.