When I speak to him it is more of finding ways to escape what I feel for someone else. For him, it is escaping from what he is feeling for someone else.
The reliance on each other is unhealthy, we both know it. We don’t know where this is heading either. Heck, we don’t even know what this is. Friendship,I guess? Over-reliance? We are not a couple, we are just friends.
If I abandon all logic and common sense then maybe I will behave exactly like him. Perhaps we are both the same. Only that he admits but I do not.
It is scary for me to head into such things without knowing if he is just another jerk.